Sedang aku mengintai pelangi disebalik awan, sayup aku terdengar nyanyian pilu seseorang. Perlahan aku mendekati dan mencuba mencari pemilik nyanyian itu. Sungguh. Aku melihat seorang lelaki menyanyi pilu dan merintih kesedihan.
Bait-bait lirik itu membawa aku hanyut kepada dunianya. Sedih. Lemah. Longlai. Itu yang mampu aku katakan.
Haha. Taklah. feeling lagu Hafiz-Bahagiamu Deritaku
I suddenly realized that i am already in my twenties. Hey !
Careful. I'm not that old. I'm just twenty this year. Well the number might increase sooner or later.
Get back to the main point.
This morning when I wakes up, I suddenly remembered and literally get ashamed of myself for some of the things that I had done in my past. Well basically it is some of my childish brain act and some of it the act that I supposed will be stupid enough to do. Then suddenly I realized, that I need to plan and analyzing some things for my future.
Recently, there are various things that happen to me related to these unplanned and un-analyze thing stuffs. Well I was terrified by the consequences that I had witnesses.
Some of it relates closely with my own family. Which in case I need to take extra attention towards these matter.
I also realized that my future is not only about myself. It is related to all of the people around me. Well heck yes some of them didn't seems to pay attention to me. But they WILL if I make a mistake that they will charitably tell everybody in my little kingdom.
Life is not that simple I told myself. There are things to be told, things to be kept, things to be thought of, things to get simplified and other type of things that might had popped in your mind.
Seriously, from now on, I should think of my future. It is bright. It is golden.And i would not make it gloomy and black and dirty as the factory chimney.
Keep in mind girl that life is not simple but it can be simple if you stay out of the trouble. But hey ! what is life without any adventures right ?
Adventures will be my quests. People might be my rival or companion along the way. Soul will be my power. Friends, smiles, loved ones, and others will be my magical spells and effects.
It takes time. Yes. But all the best people takes time to flourish and shine.